Day by day, being confused with the heart and mind. betwen learn for something new and across the rule of old life. Definitely, i hold my GOD speak that all of His creation is good. Till know i wanna try all, but inthis time i feel tired, geeting this relationship. so many things to thinking. i lost my logic. make a simple fool, it's will become big problem. or i so worried about this. about losing. ahhh... that's true, i have a bad historical story about losing some one who i loved. Someone who i believe she will be my life friend. it's very painfully.
But i know, if you hold to much you'll never get much. like hold a sand, if you hol so hard, it will paint your hand and the sand will go. so put it longer with a simple hold, feel it fill your hand fully. and you'll see, You get it more.
Sometime you must to be brave and challenges again your heart, and also don't forget to.focus on your self. if you're personal is good, your relationship will be good. i mean you got a good job, god friend live and social live, it's will have u survive, and u must have a personality time. you will be a you, in that time.
I'm writing this to remember me too, to focus on my self, and not to disturbing a women whobi love.
Tangerang, 16 April 2015
